Time well spent

we’ve all gone in the same scenario and have  said, time in time again. “How come Bad things follow me and why won’t they leave me alone?” all the times we said that we realize that in conclusion ,It all turned out for the best!! But that does that mean that we were engaged in the torment that we’re all good about it.. Hell some of the torments that I’ve been through that is exactly that….. hell!! but we are reminded that every season has a purpose and a part to play in the bigger story of our lives!! As much as we may try we cannot undo what’s done. We all live within its boundaries but they don’t have to hold us captive!! We can welcome each new season, knowing that in time we discover more about the one who is sovereign over every   Moment -Past, Present & Future!  

 Its  OK for you to want to be on the comfortable side of Solomon equations - healing ,building, laughing, dancing, and loving. But for us to just bypass times of restlessness, loss and sorrow would ultimately rob us of the necessary and beautiful process of Growth. NoOne wants pain! But we can learn to embrace itand feels what it stirs inside us... a deep, desperate longing for the presence of our savior!!Time is sacred because it is Gods gift to us. But that does not mean, we won't go thru all the twist in turns  of life but for those who linger in the presence of Jesus then every season and every circumstance becomes opportunity to know Him more fully. 

We will still struggle to make sense of time because we were create more than just monetary experiences,  temporary pleasures and short lived victories. Forever is written in our sould;  a desire for something more permanent is woven into our DNA.  The result is a desperate longing for the One  who has remain the same for all eternity. So we can go through these ever changing seasons, by holding fast to our never- changing God and we can rest assured that every moment in his hand is time well spent!!

Fire fire..

Sometimes I wonder if everyone would be much happier if I were just gone! Out of the way of causing problems and constantly in the way of someone’s impeding progress!! Tonight the toaster

Oven caught on 🔥 fire because my husband refuses to clean out the grease trap after he uses it   The last time I clean it which was only a couple - 3weeks max ago. It was so nasty and full Of grease that even my concoction of  baking soda & vinegar which will cut through the nastiest of all nasty 🤢 had a hard time cutting through ALL  that damn  grease the conventional like paste had to sit on the grease-ridden part for 30 min at least before I could get my hands back in it to wipe it off !! I told him that it wasnt fair to me to have to clean it every time !! He should be wiping it down every time he used . All you have to do is pull the bottom tray out and wipe it down and put it back. I even told him last night how much grease was in there in there The gresse  was

on the bottom  of the pan cover with thick grease but of course he ignored me.

and then after it happened, he decided to blame me for it for it. Technically it is my phone because I had pizza in the oven a little pizza in the grace invested air fryer / thoaster and then Jade came home and she wanted me to cut up her rotisserie chicken for her  . I wonder if that I was doing well I warned her that wasn’t doing well and my body is cramping all over my body  she says to me, mom Quit making it all about you. I just what up with the chicken. so  I proceeded to cut it for her and asked her for a container and that she did give me container with the lid

still on it. of course I have to ask her to take it off for me. Next thing I know i heard her yelling  at me again asking me what did I put in the toaster that would cause a fire. as she stood therr yelling at me my body is so rigid and still cramping there was not much i ćould do except stand there screaming for scott to help.  I don’t know what my husband was thinking trying to blow out with his breath. It only made the fire  bigger  i kept saying wet towels wet towels, no one listen, so I made my body walk like Frankenstein to go to thd laundree man how hotel Laundry room to get some towels that wet that can get wet and start banging out the fire. I have a little bit not much so I took the sprayer from our faucet and sprayed the heck 

out of it  til i saw no

more fire   I forgot to mention we do have a fire extinguisher ready. Right under the kitchen sink where it was on inches from the other however, none of us knew how to use it!! I guess you must learn to use that prior to a fire! technically it is my fault. But just like he won’t let me drive his because of the accident so shouldn’t let me cook now because of the fire. We left the house.  We left the house because even when they open with other windows open the smoke was a bit much and so we left and went and got pizza   came back to a little bit of bearable smoke. 

It been quite the hiatus…..

I never intended on being gone long but definately not 10 years! In some ways it does seem liken 10 eyars have passed but other  ways it just doesn't seem that long!! 

As i begin to think about all that  has transpired in the 10 years since i began this blogg. Now as i am writing i am getting seriously anxious thinking about how much content is absent and jsut how mcuh content is needed to correctl timeline it all!   This is not what I had intended upon this exercise to be.  I wanted this to be a haven where i could go and just dump all my thoughts.  I really need this because i was finding myself texting people literally books of my thoughts and just writing whatever the fuck I wanted with absoolutely no regards to editting…what's that!?!  Even therecipients would comment on the length and would still not get it!

Finally! One day, It dawned on me that maybe i shouldn't be so sharing of my inner most thoughts! At the very least tempered those thoughts from your friends and maybe redirect them to your…. my what? What can I do?Hey! Why not your old blog you started years ago. You started that as a place where you could write down your thoughts and a  place to  timeline all the medical.issues you where dealing with and a place  where i could put some of my favorite photos that I have taken along this journey I call

 Life!]