Is your mom still there? I failed to ask how long she plan on staying with ya’ll.
I hope she plans on staying give me the time that Michelle’s gonna be on the cruise because you worry me so much when Michele goes on her fiestas with her girlfriend. i’m not saying she shouldn’t how come y’all don’tdon’t go on a trio together? I love my girlfriend but I rather be able to trip with my spouse And my love more. And that’s obviously more of my my own thoughts, but I have I never really clearly understood the rationale behind it all and I was hoping that you might be able to shed some new perspective on it for me, especially coming from a man who is OK with his wife going on vacations without him. I know trust has to be a major factor in all this because this shows me that one of the major reason I’ve never wanted him to go anywhere without me because I can’t/ couldn’t couldn’t trust him. It all began whenmy ex wanted to go on a boys trip to the Obx (my heaven on earth) for a fishing trip ! Right away I knew something as was skewed because my hubby didn’t s fish. Didn’t even care too, but yet he wanted to go on this trip! Fast forward to a few weeks later when we were all at the raddison hotel (our honeymoon destination from his boss because we look were too poor to go anywhere so just the honeymoon suite at the Radisson in Hampton Va. which my dear husband decide to invite all his softball buddies up to our room til dawn!! Should have known he was a loser that really didn’t love me because i wasn’t even important enough on the very day that we expressed our sacred vows to each other!! But What could I possibly do now ?? I was pregnant carrying his baby and no job so i had no way to support myself. I felt so lost and lonely, oh so lonely and no one to turn or to be able to trust someone else to tell them about the other life I lead where I’m abattered woman.
At the beginning of the evening, he acted all stranhe.
And I realize at that point it was always around this particular girl As it happens, he slept with the girl at obx and All his friends knew and someway / somehow someone thought it was OK to bring her to my wedding reception!!!!
I finally lost it when the vomiting began !!! Anyone that knows me , knows i don’t do vomit Not for anyone!! Except, surprisingly for each one of my babies! That’s what I knew/ realized that I really was their mommy not j just any mommy but their mommy and that I could do it even with vomit!!!!
But back to that night, I told every one to get the bleep out of my room and thank them all as sarcastically as I could Muster.
however, Horrible that night my ex husband not only had sex with his new bride but he also gave his new bride a small beating and he pretty much forced himself on her. I don’t know what you call that but in my book when a woman says no, and the man still proceeds to force himself inside her. I call that call that RAPE!!-yes I was his wife but I didn’t want it after my first small beating!! The first of many more FIRST to come Like
FIRST I'm sorry
FIRST I never do
We didn’t have a real wedding. it was just the two of us at a wedding chapel in Virginia Beach. No not on the beach, which I would have loved seeing that I’m a beach girl but he told me he told me, he absolutely hated to go to the beach. For a man that hated the beach so much certainly had no issues getting married on the beach, for his next wife. He also never took pictures of me and he would never put my picture in His office ;nevertheless, now he i’m in instantaneously put pictures of his wife on Facebook and he has his phone flooded with pictures of her. He is obviously more proud of her looks than of mine!! She's a barbie Barbie, skinny, big boobs, and long hair, blonde. And now present day, my current husband doesn’t take pictures of me either and no picture on his phone wallpaper nothing zelch!! So whenever I see Michele's picture on your phone it tears at my heart because I would Just love it for once someone could put me as a their wallpaper without being asked. That they would be so IN LOVE with ME AND THAT they want to do it all on their own without any LEADSThe one that my current husband put on his phone is a picture of me on the beach. I amon the right side of the picture ;however, he cut me in half so all that anyone can see is just half of me. Mayybe its a sign to show him or somebody else for that matter that I only matter a half to him. Or maybe its an unconscious showing from him that I only mean 1/2 to him. And people have always wondered why I am so negative of myself myself!!!
BTW….the reason why I think that I have Parkinson’s disease, it’s because my ex use to bash my head on the wall multiple times!! The same reason they believe Muhammad Ali got Parkinson’s disease because of all the bashing in his head from boxing competitively.
This one really blows me away, but My ex still messages me about having sex with him!! So I guess I’m good enough for being a whore just not good enough or pretty enough to be the one you want to flaunt around or outwardly show your love to her for everyone to see.
Now for the killer of it all My my present day husband who obviously could care less about flaunting Nonetheless , present day, bitches at work that he tell me how smart they are how much drive they have to achieve all they want want so I’m just curious to know who he is or wants to fuck right now!!!
Yeah, obviously need people in the middle of the night because you tell me about how often you scream for Michelle and she will come running to your aid Hey boy, let me say something right there. You have a girl worth her weight in gold because I’m alone, but I’m not allowed to scream for my husband help and I swear with my
Hands on my Bible because it’s the Gods honest truth! He says, “do not wake me up!! I need my sleep to work.”
So when he hears me Cry because I’m scared to death of falling down the stairs!! When my leg is so week and I can’t pick them up. It scares me that I will fall down the stairs so of course I’m crying in fear of falling!! I hear from him , “shut the fuck up shut the fuck up. I don’t want to hear and I don’t really care so just shut the fuck up !!!” Tell me that wouldn’t make you cry harder !! Feeling as if an ice pick being jammed intio your heart, and kids learn by what y they they see and hear !! Nos
Now , my oldest will tell me to stop moaning she doesn’t wanna hear it !! Yes!! i will moan !! Usually in the evening when things become harder for me ! I won’t Be made to apologize nor feel apologetic, for it !!!
So when I asked for help going up the stairs, what do I get “shut the fuck up I don’t wanna hear and I don’t care ! “ and “ be quiet, mom, and quit playing the victim! “ why would I even bother to ask for help in going upstairs??? I ‘m already in my own Parkie Hell The people that I love the most have turned against me!!! 💔
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